Dinner at my house with my parents Natalie, Lindsay and of coarse Rick

This is the Chelonidae or "Sea Turtle". My parents boat that they are currently taking to florida

So they are really sailing away....My parents are going to be heading south on the "sea turtle" on tuesday the 21st. This is such a wonderful yet terrorifying thing for me. It leaves alot of room for reflection on me and my life in general. I feel confident in my life here and for once i truely love my life. I never told anyone or really myself how much i disliked my life and i feel so good now. Its funny how it seemed just normal to not really be happy and then all of the sudden you wake up and poof a whole new happy you. I love the farm and have found god in all the animals and plants that make up my life there. my job is amazing and truely rewarding although sometimes irratating. But im a big figure in an amazing town. I sometimes feel alone but i know that even if my family and friends are many many miles away they are always with me in my heart. Thats all for now! Ill keep updates on my folks.

I live...i know it has been a long time my new job is soo insane. Ive been so busy that i have been compleatly unreachable. last week an alarm went off on the sprinkler system.. long and short a old head on the system ended up blowing thank god the system was shut off when this happened. and only air came out of the head when it burst. MUCH better than 80 gallons of water per min. what a rush, the tenants are mostly crazy but harmless, always wanting more for less money. DONT they know how far below market they already pay? AAAH me an rick are great as usual now a days. He is working tons but starting to enjoy it again i think he goes in phases between love and hate of his job. I went to kate shoreys bridal shower last week and wow i am so happy for her! It was really nice to see all the old girls. I got to reconnect with some wonderful friends and am meeting one today to go to the Marbleworks Pharmacy 20th anniversary festival. Should prove to be quite interesting. Her son who was just a tot when last i saw him. Is now six years old! My oh my time flys.

the family*

its strange how tragety brings people together. Morgan Leigh Lancer 7/31/82-8/21/08. Sadness and greif are abundant. I was hoping that writing could heal my soul but right now it is not right. I knew morgan since we were babies together. She was so fun, spirit shining through the good bad and the ugly. we had alot of fun times together, not to mention the trouble we got in together. Ahhh its amazing how much i have prayed in the last few days, i mean its a regular thing for me but really non stop. I know thats what she needs and what she would have done for me. We hadent hung out in quite a while and i wish we had, i guess that is why im praying so much catholic-ish guilt on not trying harder. but its not important, what is important is remembering the sparkling soul that was morgan, the morgan that i will never forget. I guess her family is having an increadibly hard time, cant blame them. i and everyone should send them strength in whichever way you can....i guess ill just keep praying.

and shes gone on a jet plane.... I didnt think it would hit me so hard but my oh my. Lindsay left on tuesday for tuscon AZ to work for white stallion ranch. I am so happy and proud of her but cant help but feel deserted. I miss you linds. this year has been tremendously hard and well linds has been my stone. She always understands and never judges no matter what! Wow. i cant help but feel like my lincoln connection is no longer which is bittersweet. But alas i have no time, i love this picture i just wish you could see mrs. perfects "stairway to heaven". I hope to visit AZ this spring after the heating system is shut down for the winter at the building. If and when i do trust that there will be many wonderful horseback riding in the desert picts.

one doggy pic