Part of me still finds it depressing

So every week i buy the Addison independent. Is a comfort thing i start with the police log which thankfully i nolonger recognize any names! then i read the oped page and then always find myself looking at the announcements you know the wedding/baby/engagement page. And every week without fail, there is another person from my highschool class that is either married, engaged or celebrating the arrival of a new baby. AAAAh i remind myself that i am not in a race and that i am not getting left behind. But boy is it hard to find the strength to not get down about it. On the bright side i regularly am able to celebrate the addition to the herd on the farm.. it amazes me how often calves are born on the farm. I am beginning to master the art of convincing them that i am their mother.You know mooing and giving them their first meal. I chuckle when i picture how jenn and ruth would laugh it they were to catch me crouched down on the milk house floor doing my best momma cow while a brand new calf stumbles to and fro trying to reach its "mother" and her tasty meal in a giant baby bottle. For now these will be my babies. And that is just fine.

Wow just thinking about it makes me feel better.

Its funny how when it snows, no matter where you are you feel a sense of peace. I can be out at the farm or at the apartment in "downtown" middlebury and the snow is just so quiet and peaceful. Ahhh wonderful.

First step

This will be short, This is my first blog and im not sure what to write i will start with a quote from george bernard shaw,

"The great secret... is not having bad manners or good manners...
but having the same manner for all human souls: in short, behaving as if you
were in heaven, where there are no third class carriages and one soul is as good as
another"

try just try to live this way, im sure trying.

anyway things around the house are looking good almost finished with the kitchen and living room. looking more and more like a home everyday. love to all