baby i just got started loving you

So times are tough. Me and my beloved are on a trial seperation. we still live together and still hang out (i mean really who elce are we going to hang out with we are our own bff)and still love eachother greatly. But ricky thinks that he may not love me as much as i need him to. and we know that i do demand alot of love. Which is absolutly crushing for me. I have thoughts of "how can this happen again, i give my heart and soul to someone and they dont have enough to give to me". he is a good man though. our cell phones are on the same plan and he will continue to pay it and of coarse will continue to pay rent. It is a confusing situtation. Rick says that he loves me and that he just feels like he holds me back. Cant blame him on that one i feel that too sometimes. but he and i are adults and surprisingly are dealing with it in an adult like manner. I respect him for having the balls to bring this foward insted of just acting the part. it would be worse to have him fake love me. but i realize that i am rambeling. i havent told anyone about all this and it is nice to put it up on the screen. I have found that this seperation has givin me a renewed sense of ME, i am building my confidence again. For the two of us we are getting to know each other again. its amazing how day to day life can make you inadvertently become drawn apart. we are becomming friends again, laughing again, having amazing sex again. These things give me faith that even if we dont work it all out Rick will continue to be a dear friend for the rest of my life. If that is all i can get than i am willing to take that.